The moon was back this morning. Covered by clouds with pieces of it peaking through once in a while in some kind of defiance, but I don’t want to revisit the subject again, so I will let it rest and remain behind the clouds.
I was thinking this morning why I have always quit the things I cared deeply about before and that this time I am determined not to let that happen again.
I get going with a creative task. I put my heart and soul into it. I get it finished only for it to remain unnoticed by anyone. This has happened to me again and again. I have generated enough income through my photography to keep going, but never enough to make living from it. I have written a book, but nobody knows that it exists, and in the past this would have made me quit. Don’t get me wrong, I am not feeling terribly good about things and haven’t been for the last few weeks, but a promise is a promise and I’m going to keep it.
I think that is the difference this time. I am giving myself an opportunity to be successful but not on my time but on someone else’s. Writing and photography is a lonely business. I live inside my head a lot, but wish to one day break through and have a conversation with the world.
I promised myself that I am just going to write. Write everyday. I’ll do my best and I will share what I have written with the world. I am determined to do this until the day I die and I think that this is the key to everyone’s dreams, no matter what they are.
I think the only true sin is the sin of giving up. It is a fall we can never rise from it because it is final. There is nothing to be done, yet if we can keep going, if we can keep persisting, everything is possible. We just have to get out of our own way to see it through.
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