The reality of oncoming change has set in this weekend and even little tiny seeds of doubt but I welcome them because before I do anything worthwhile, there are always seeds of doubt.
And so the countdown is on to the end of the year and new beginnings. Thanks to a compassionate friend I am finally getting after what I want to get after – some fiction. It does however present a challenge. The writing that I do here every day throughout the week have become a matter of routine. I am almost at nine hundred entries and will certainly hit that before it is all said and done. There is a certain peaceful rhythm, frustrating at time, exciting at others that now follows each and every time I write.
But writing fiction is unknown and uncharted territory. It’s a different beast one that I am going to have to learn how to tame. Notice that I am saying going to and that I do not doubt that it is possible. My outlook on things is healthy these days. Not like it was even three years ago. I am willing to take risks. I am willing to try and do things I’ve never done before because it makes me feel alive.
Many of our routines grind us down and chip away at our humanity. Not that those activities or routines are bad. Working for a living is a blessing, but much of that work is simply to pay for things and not in order to feel alive and find meaning around us.
This change will be good for me. I will most likely stumble. I’m not even sure if 10 writing sessions and 5000 words is enough for a good short story, but I will start turning them out, just like these pieces and we will see where we are at the end of it all.
Thanks for coming along for the ride, or if you have come and read this after the thread has ended, thank you for caring too. Rediscover the things you love about being you and start new things that will challenge you.
You need a countdown too!
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